Hopeless

I feel that I have lost it all, I know it so deep inside me, but the world is trying to deceive me. Everytime I am around you I feel it.

Something that hasn´t been said, something horrible, devastating,  it is there and you don´t want to tell me. It doesn´t go away, I can feel it everyday, I know is there. But you know that releasing this beast will be  the total destruction of my soul, reconstruction is almost impossible.

It lays in your hands...you dont want to be responsible, but what a dilemma. Should you live knowing that I can sense it or should you release it, destroy me and hope for reconstruction. You reached a point where you do not know what you want anymore, and I am waiting to know or my twisted mind is playing with me again. The inconvenient truth is that, it is not my mind, it´s my heart the one that feels this, the sad truth is that the heart is never wrong.

Are you going to tell me what you did?
What did you do?
Something happened...
I know.